Something that I often struggle with is pondering the humongous question of “why do I matter?” It can be a quite humbling thought, to put it lightly. My mind has been known to be easily led by all sorts of tangents, so you can imagine the gravity created by this question when my poor mind starts to spin it. Fortunately, no amount of crazy Sarah-created tangents has led me too far to come back to the truth that I DO matter- even if I don’t always understand the why behind it. How I know this could be a sermon in itself- but I’ll leave that to my daddy-o (he’s a preacher if you didn’t already know) : http://www.redlandbaptist.org/sermon/what-on-earth-am-i-here-for/ <— (Seriously take a chance to read this.)
Although it wouldn’t be helpful and actually would be quite embarrassing to share with you all of the tangents that this gigantic question spurs- I will share the one that brings me to why I am blogging today: “Why does what I DO matter- namely as a photographer?”. Yes, it’s a big one. Not that the first question is easier by any means, but for me, it has a CLEARER answer as there’s really no place in scripture that talks about being a wedding photographer…
Joey and I have gotten into a habit of having dinner around 6:15pm and watching the nightly news with Brian Williams on NBC. I totally feel like an old married couple doing this, especially with our little dinners in front of us- but that’s besides the point. However more informed about the goings ons of the world, I’ve been left the past few nights SO SAD for our world. I know this feeling is nothing new, but in watching I can’t help but wonder even more- about my purpose as a photographer. (cue the mind tangents, wanderings, and emotional roller coaster). What DOES being a photographer REALLY do for the bettering of this world?
In thinking about this- my wandering mind wandered back to a song I used to love by Sara Groves that goes something like this… (Take a listen)
I probably listened to that song 20 times in the past hour, with lots and lots of tears, and thoughts about why what I do does actually MATTER.
I more than realize that what I do is nothing heroic- my photos are not saving the world (however much I wish they would)- but there is something to be said about capturing and documenting life and the role that it plays in bringing light into this incredibly dark world.
In a world that often devalues the sanctity of life- it is so important to showcase what a incredibly BEAUTIFUL gift LIFE is.
This kind of BEAUTY points back to our creator. A photograph that captures life? And love? Is a “protest of the darkness and the chaos ALL around.” It’s “compassion and attention midst confusion and dissension like small ramparts for the soul.” Those kind of reminders- Matter.
All of our “thinking and creating and our efforts of narrating about the beauty” does something in this war torn, crazy world we live in. Beauty separates darkness.
So if you’re a photographer, and you’re reading this….or a creative, a writer, a musician, a sculptor, painter (the list goes on) be encouraged that all your creating, narrating, playing, molding, stroking- is so needed- and it matters.
“You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden.” – Matthew 5:14